Get over yourself.

I think it's strange how you only talk about your problems constantly.
You come to school talking about it.
It's the only thing you'll talk about in coversations.
You'll even change the subject completely to where it's aimed towards your problems.
Then you try and talk about all this shit you're gonna do but never do any of it.
You ask for advice and for some reason, I give it to you.
Truth is, I have my own problems to deal with but you seem to only care about yours so I don't mention them.

I'm going to go solve my problems with a few portrait drawings.

You can see my finished artwork here though.

I also have completed an official visual art blog for the public to see.

http://photosbyjasmine.blogspot.com/

Everything went well, I guess you could say.
I'm still over-analyzing the pros and cons, though.
In time, things will get better.
I hope.

I think my "problem" is getting a bit better after today, but tomorrow I have to completely fix everything. I was being ignored today so I didn't really put any effort into it. Turns out, it was my fault. I didn't know that. So I felt kind of bad. But in a way, it was sweet :)

I own this. View on my FLICKR.

I don't know why, but I'll probably start hating myself for it, I keep pushing guys out of my life. I seriously don't get it.


I know that you like me, so much for being subtle. But I don't really like you so... But even if I did, I'd probably do the same thing I'm doing now. I don't mean to do it, it just happens.
It's like I was built to not show public affection, or any at all.
I'm not ignoring you on purpose.
I don't get it.
I'm sorry, and it's probably selfish, but I like knowing someone likes me, even though I don't feel the same way.
And I know it's going to end soon, even if I don't want it to.


I keep doing this over and over.
It's why I fucked my life up so much in the past.


I need help.

If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

Idk, but I have an obsession with mohawks.

If my hair were shorter and took a long time to grow, I'd probably get one.

And dye it red.

"In the end,

they'll judge

me anyway."

Words cannot explain how hungry I am right now ~


#i'm so poetic