I don't know why, but I'll probably start hating myself for it, I keep pushing guys out of my life. I seriously don't get it.


I know that you like me, so much for being subtle. But I don't really like you so... But even if I did, I'd probably do the same thing I'm doing now. I don't mean to do it, it just happens.
It's like I was built to not show public affection, or any at all.
I'm not ignoring you on purpose.
I don't get it.
I'm sorry, and it's probably selfish, but I like knowing someone likes me, even though I don't feel the same way.
And I know it's going to end soon, even if I don't want it to.


I keep doing this over and over.
It's why I fucked my life up so much in the past.


I need help.